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Genuine question- Do any of ya like my Jack n Dave designs??
I've been seeing so many cool designs, I'm growing unhappy n insecure of mine
But...maybe I'm being too harsh on myself?
Or maybe my designs are just too bland?? Too..not interesting?? Ugg...brain is overthinking
I think I should mess with their haircuts more. And perhaps the head n body shapes more too
I'm terrified of overthinking so much I'll get burnout of drawing these weird colored fucks, cuz I'll be so focused on making the designs perfect, the joy may die...ugh!!
Thoughts are hard! I may delete this later?? I apologize for so many vent posts, I'm trying my best to survive my stupid silly brain!
I may try to look at y'alls designs into mind...study them and see what works n doesn't w what I'm going for...y'all are too talented its hard to keep up!!
#tw// vent post#vent post#wooooo sorry guys#genuine question tho#maybe I should work on my designs far more#i just wanted to have fun but now I'm genuinely upset over my art in general#idk if I'll delete this#i may reblog this post w progress on the designs!#who knows!!#id appreciate any tips!#tyty if u actually took time to read my silly rambles#not art
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*Sigh* Just what I knew would happen. If this specific group of content creators end up splitting up it is not going to be the fault of the so called "weirdo parasocial ficwriter" fans, but because of those who call themselves "true-hardcore" fans.
"Oh, the whimsy one threw in this board game and let the try-hard win again, what a dumbfuck r-word he is!"
"Oh, the toxic one does not want to be represented by an animal anymore, fuck him, we are going to keep doing it and if it hurts him then that's a he problem!"
"Oh, the chaotic one doesn't wanna see win tallies and statistics anymore. That's because he can't stop losing and he's butthurt. Grow tf up!"
"Oh, the try-hard is tired and has lost some games. That means he's a fraud and sould Keep Himself Safe."
But the problematic fans are those in their own bubbles writing stories about the whimsy one and the toxic one holding hands (romantically). Of course it is.
#fallen ramblings#fallen vents#fallen venting#the gang that crashes parties#or whatever their name is#content creators#idk if i'll delete this#eh whatevs
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AuDHD is so funny sometimes like what do you mean my hyperfixations/special interests will last for years on end or possibly forever but they will cycle out every month or two with absolutely no transitional period or warning. like i will think about the same topic every day obsessively for 46 days in a row and on the 47th day with no visible cause adhd brain goes "ok! bored of that now" and autism brain goes "dw i got something queued up for ya" and i blast into full blown obsession on some other topic whose mental file folders haven't opened in 9 months. brain's out here treating hyperfixations like a crop rotation. once the dopamine runs out it cycles in another one but once something's in the rotation it never ever leaves. last summer we brought in one from when i was 11. it's so funny to me but frustrating too bc like. i cannot stress enough my inability to predict or control this. or how completely abrupt and random it can be
#actually adhd#actually autistic#audhd#aphelion.txt#ik 'adhd brain' vs 'autism brain' is a gross oversimplification especially given how much overlap there can be#but it at least helps me conceptualize wtf is going on in my head when i do this lol#and yeah i'm mostly referring to fandoms in this post but it can happen w more 'Traditional' special interests too#like my linguistics special interest which hasn't popped up in a couple years now but whenever it does#i will fill literal notebooks while studying 4 languages at once and simultaneously inventing a conlang#and then i'll be like Ok that was fun! and several months later im deleting like. 2gb of textbooks off my iphone to make room for an update#And sometimes yeah there is a precipitating event like 'Oh something new happened in X fandom with my blorbo!' but sometimes it's like#yeah. no. idk either. switch got flipped in my brain and X no longer sparks joy. only Y rn. how come it's Y? yeah idk i also wish i knew#i don't think any of this is actually an uncommon experience for people with these types of neurodivergencies it's just.#the severity of abruptness and TOTALITY of the switch that makes me feel like a weirdo sometimes lol#like I'M getting mental whiplash from this sometimes. idk how y'all are still following my blog
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ace detective more like ace DEFECTIVE
#I HATE THIS BITCH SM HES GENUINELY SO FUN TO DRAW FOR NO REASON 😭😭😭😭#bro idk if the first one makes sense to anyone else. 😔 get it cause like akechi is in the siu so he techincally works for the government 😔#i finished shido's palace again and cried like a bitch because of him so im back to drawing persona again im so sorry everyone#my brother deleted persona from the steamdeck i play on and idk how to redownload it so i cant touch the game until christmas now 🫶🏼#i drew a lot over break actually i've just been going back and coloring a few of the sketches i did#idk how ppl draw everyday aren't u exhausted 😭#anyway hope faggotron 6000 dies in the royal version too i can't stand him#persona 5#persona 5 royal#p5#p5r#goro akechi#akechi goro#UHHHH ren is here so i'll tag him#ren amamiya#akira kurusu#lotus draws#goodnight everyone im so tired#i need winter break to come faster.........
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harry. sitting comfortably. enjoying life
#you asked. i provided#ok tha'ts an old sketch but i reeeaaaaally like it#feels sooo... cartoony idk#may delete later tho#I don't threaten i just think it's not cool enough for my blog if that makes sense#sorry i'll shut up
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will redo this shot hatsune miku and teto animation maybe
#sorry for the bad quality its all tumblr will allow lol#might delete later tbh#but its just miku and teto#for an animation idea i had#maybe i'll finish the animation but idk#ive only had the energy and motivation to animate vocaloids#for some reason
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brb, locking the fuck in for my art final.
#i have exactly 2 days to start and finish it. i'll be back in a bit#delete later#oh also gg20s one-page comics are continuing soon idk if anyone was wondering about those#took a break cuz comics are Hard Work
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#adding my fav sonadow edits from tiktok#idk if the creator is american or not#sonadow#tiktok#videos#sonic#shadow#shared during the tiktok ban#tiktok ban#i'll delete this post if the creator doesn't want other people to share#now that tiktok is unbanned
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It may seem weird, but last night I was thinking a lot about the difference between Ochako and Himiko's hands. Ochako has thicker hands and rounder fingers, probably because she needs to pick up heavy things using her quirk. The little pink buttons make it look like cat paws...
Himiko has thinnest, skinniest, and longest fingers. Her nails also seem to be long, or at least she takes good care of them
I think about what it would be like if they compared their hands. I think Himiko would like to touch and caress the calluses on Ochako's hands and force her to apply hand cream every time before she leaves to work.....
#just thinking....#himikos also likes to touch the little “buttons” from ochako's finger#I think it would be kind of sensitive there (?)#I think I'll delete this#idk...#togachako#toga himiko#ochako urakara#bnha#mha
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I���m going to phrase this delicately because I’m so deeply grateful and awed by the support I’ve received.
But I will say it is a little anxiety inducing how many people feel they can talk about coming home whatever way they want openly and publicly because it has “numbers” or whatever (referring to my own work like this makes me want to claw my eyes out because they baffle me and I don’t necessarily feel I deserve them but it’s important for context).
This is Especially true for the way people speak under things I very much see. Art of the fic. My Twitter mutuals posts. Things I will very obviously interact with. It feels like someone is walking into my back yard and talking shit as if I'm literally not standing in said yard like this 🧍
You make something for a community for free as an act of passion and then the community in turn becomes something that isn’t quite accessible to you anymore. I’ve seen this happen to a lot of fic writers in my previous fandoms and idk man it’s just kind of a bummer.
Like. Fanfic and fanart is made by people in the fandom for the fandom. It’s not work being produced by some distant people in Hollywood who shouldn’t be in the fandom space in the first place.
Idk, it’s actually pretty rare that this happens to me but I wanted to mention I am a human who can very much read the things you say guys 😭 like if you reblog art related to my work and call it a bunch of petty names and say you had to dnf I can see that. It’s totally ok to feel whatever way you want. But maybe don't feel that way in my back yard.
Again. I’m so grateful for everything I really am. You absolutely do not have to fuck with my work. Fuck I don't fuck with my work sometimes DKLFJSDHF. This is probably the last time I’ll talk about this because the last thing I want to do is come off like I can’t take criticism and I’m ungrateful. But sometimes I really am chewing at my enclosure like IM RIGHT HERE MAN IM LITERALLY BEHIND YOU HOW DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND THAT.
#on the upside I have definetly developed a thicker skin over the past month#I genuinely mean it things that used to phase me now just kind of annoy me#but on the other hand#I do feel fic writers should be able to be members of the fandoms they write for#I’ve noticed some of the other writers in this fandom once they get attention do not interact much#but idk I don’t…. want that to be me#9/10 chance I’ll feel weird about this and delete in the next five minutes to an hour#but yeah sometimes I do feel there’s this ‘shut up and be grateful’ thing that gets imposed on me#but I can be grateful and also set boundaries and talk about things that make me stressed or uncomfortable me thinks#never something i'd do on twitter. but something i'm going to cautiously attempt here#honestly if this helps one person realize how to better interact in fandom spaces online i'll be happy#also side note since im leaning towards maybe keeping this up#im literally fine. i'm big chilling right now. posted this in a good headspace over my coffee yada yada#no need to defend my honor or point fingers you know#also i know to an extent that this stuff is inevitable#and i cannot stop it or whatever. but again. i'd at least like to say it just the once#at this point its not even the crit itself that makes me feel a certain type of way#it just makes me feel kind of invisible and dehumanized
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Worst feeling ever is when you go to reread a fic you really like and find out it's been deleted. Even WORSE worst feeling ever is checking the author's profile and finding out they've deleted all of their fics entirely
#NO!! NO!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!#Collapses to my knees how could this happen...why...#😭😭😭#This is the exact reason why I never delete any of my fics#I just orphan them if I don't want to be associated with them anymore. That way people can still at least READ them#If they want to#AO3 authors please please PLEASE never delete just orphan that way your username gets detached#And nobody will know you wrote it but it's still THERE#Crying screaming throwing up.#At the very least I saved one (1) of their fics. Idk I had a psychic sense and went 'I should save this one'#And thank GOD I did. Aghh#Wayback Machine doesn't even have any records...I'm going to cry#Lies down#I'll miss them forever and ever. They'll probably never know but I want them to know this.#Shima speaks
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FAIR WARNING THESE DRAWINGS ARE MILDLY SUGGESTIVE! Do not worry it's not anything TOO far for anyone's comfort, but i still wanted to warn abt it anyway! this is a headcanon i had that choosen rescues dark after the big fight, and for several days he continues to take care of dark while they get to slowly bound with each other again, however dark wasn't that accepting in the beginning-
they are exes that are still atracted to each other me thinks.
#cw suggestive#cw sex mention#cw sex talk#animation vs animator#ava ships#i might delete this if i feel like it might not age well or if i don't like it to be here#this is a complete 180 of what i normally draw so lols#idk#i'll just#throw this out there and if it's not well received i might just delete#AvM#my art
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2024 Abu Dhabi GP
#max verstappen#autumn posts#and of course Alain Prost!!#this moment is very much me thirsting tho 😵💫#his chesttt his hips his hair looking so BLONDE in the sun!!!!#🫠💫✨#sorry all the spam this morning!!#also I usually don't give too much thought to follower counts on tumblr dot com#folks should make the space they like!! follow and unfollow freely#but I did loose a couple folks and I wonder if it was all the asks ahhh#like definitely if someone is looking for f1 content then random factoids about this Texas gal are Not interesting hehe#but I'm trying to open up a bit more!#I even had some thoughts on Daniel I deleted ahh still trying to figure out where to blog about heavier stuff but probs not on main#this blog is more to escape the real world and bite Max's lovehandles in my mind#with maybe the occational ask game!!#but I'll probs keep my writing on the other blog and my heavier feelings in the old diary...idk figuring it out but its not that serious too#just rambling before work!!#but anyways!! 2025 year of being more open#if you are reading this then hello 😶🌫️ btw ricciardo133 is my fanfic writing space#I'll be waxing poetic about my Max and Daniel feelings there#and yearning over this man's hips and tummy and thighs my goshhhhh#😵💫❤️✨#anyways!!!#hope its an excellent time of day wherever you may be 🌇🏙️🌃#mentally I'll be here 😵💫😵💫😵💫
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This a PSA for everyone...
BE NICE TO WRITERS ON HERE
DONT FUCKING REPOST THEIR WORK ON OTHER SITES
They had the confidence to post original works on here and we need to respect them
If you don't like what they wrote, don't read
If you don't like them, don't follow or just block them so you don't see them
BE KIND TO FANFIC WRITERS YOU FILTHY ANIMALS (lovingly)
#if had multiple friends delete blogs and shit due to bullying and people reposting their works on other sites#i hate it#y'all ruin shit for the rest of us!!!!#writers on tumblr#writing#fanfiction#fanfics#fanfic#writers#writerscommunity#idk if think of more tags I'll add them later
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Regulus' Beautiful Boy
Regulus passes softly and peacefully in the middle of the night, like the outpouring tide, and wakes up the next morning in his childhood bedroom.
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After death Regulus becomes his own imaginary friend and gets to see his beautiful boy again even though he knows he can't save him he tries to give him just a little more love.
#i don't know how this compares to the first one#but i dont know i thought i had something to say maybe i didn't maybe this was pointless#im also having a weird little day but uh idk#im feeling awful about everything i write and a lot of things feel awful right now but hey sad james brings me home or whatever#anywa y#i thought i hated the first one and now it's like my favorite thing i've ever written so maybe i'll like this one too#or maybe i'll delete it time will only tell#it's also midnight right now#i dont know man im tired#hug your friends that's all this fic is asking you to do#jegulus#regulus black#james potter#the marauders#jegulus fic#fic: His Parents' Beautiful Boy
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Well here's an Art vs artist meme with some art from this year!
I don't think I've ever done one of these before, but I really like this jacket. It's a marlboro jacket but I don't smoke and I already feel bad telling people I don't have a light and that will be bad x100 when I'm literally wearing a cigarette jacket so I tried to cover the patch up with one I made. cause I really like this jacket
#most of my family smokes (which is why I don't) so no judgement but yeah I dont have any I can share.. I could carry a lighter for people ig#but damn. what a good jacket. you cant even see the whole thing and my cool red belt with it#anyways. I never share pictures of myself cause people often get weird but I really like clothes!#which famously go on a person#and this is popular meme so I think its a good way for me to like break the ice for myself#if I am gonna ever share clothes I make/collect#I go thrifting like. every so often. used to be about once a month but has been less frequent recently#cause I cant afford spending like $50 on pants or whatever so I just check regularly#and if I like anything EVER then I get it then#and then I just mend my clothes so I can use them as long as possible basically#cause I just can't wait til I need pants to go and find pants that I like#otherwise I'll either end up with something I dont like or something that was way too expensive!!!#shoes are the hardest cause my feet are deformed. which is so sad cause shoes are like. I love them so much...#anyways.#art vs artist#me#idk what to tag this whatever#bye#thats me thats my face#if anyone is weird I'm deleting the post
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